Some Thoughts

So I have been thinking a lot lately about journaling. I am a horrible journal writer always have been. I have tried numerous times in my life to be better at it but I am just not. I try to use my blog as a journal but I have noticed that I am very reserved about REALLY talking about what is going on some times. I started thinking about why and I was nervous about what people may think or really I just don't want to share what is going on with the whole world. It's just not my style. I have always had a very tight circle of friends around me that really know me and I guess that's what I decided I wanted my blog to be. So I deleted a bunch of people and those of you that are left are going to start getting the more authentic, mushy, deep thinker that I am. I have opinions and some pretty strong ones at that and some day when Jacoby reads through this blog aka my journal I want him to really know me not just have a chronological order of what we did while he was growing up. I want him to see what makes me me and where he came from and know that his Mama loves him so much even if she makes some mistakes.